Charope LLC, Infirmary- Dominique's suite
"Dominique... Ashley has been a large part of my renewed vitality-- in an emotional way."
:: Dominique blinked a few times as she stared at him, and smirked a bit.::
Is that a fact?
:: She said with an incredulous tone, and she shifted her jaw a bit, as she suppressed the urge to release a haughty laugh. That hateful, unkind, disrespectful wench....helping ANYONE to renewal?!::
"Emotional renewal!?"
Zach...I went to GREAT LENGTHS to save your life, and by your own admission, you don't even know or understand the scope of that effort, and what it took, but SHE is the source of your...."EMOTIONAL RENEWAL!?"
This woman, who DELIGHTS in antagonizing other people, demeaning and disrespecting them at every turn....THIS is who you turned to for...RENEWAL!?
:: Dominique's voice raised with agitation::
How can ANYONE be renewed when dealing with that unkind, disrespectful, boorish woman!?
:: she threw her hands up in the air, exhaling with distress, as she shook her head. She looks away from him, and took a few moments to calm herself. He starts to speak, and she holds up her hand for silence::
You know what? Don't bother to explain. You probably can't understand why I'm having the reaction I'm having, and one pattern of this team is quite clear. Anything that's too complex, or requires a closer look...is dismissed.
:: she says with a bitter tone as she folds her arms::
As I told Delilah...I can heal the sick and injured, I can bring vitality to the old, and strength to the infirmed, I can even save a person from death.
But not even the bright lady herself would attempt to fix a mind and a heart....they want what they want, no matter how inexplicable the desire may be. That is tied to free will. Some people chose things that are TOXIC for them.
:: she closes her eyes, shaking her head, and then she moves on, calming , and once again looking him in the eye::
I didn't call you in here to get upset with you, or to condemn you for the choices you make.
I called you in here because I wanted to SEE you.
:: She softened her gaze once more::
I want you to know that I exerted the effort that I did to save you, because I CARE about you, and despite what Oldenburg, or anyone ELSE says...I DO have a heart. I AM sensitive to the plight of the weak, those in distress, those in need. What do you think was such a driving factor for me during the purifiers caper!?
I haven't forgotten what you did for me during the Purifiers caper. You helped me in a way no one else could, when I was most in need.
But I made SURE to take that help, build on it and more FORWARD, making the most of the reprieve you granted me from that empathic assault I was under.
I...just don't want to see you waste this precious second chance that you've been given.
Vivica was right about you being a good man. But even a good man with a kind heart can be....MISDIRECTED at times.
I sincerely hope that you've learned something from this near death experience, and that don't waste all of your time with HER, not when there are so many unfinished things that you...that WE need to address.
If you haven't already, I hope that you're going to REPAIR your relationships with Sharon and Alycia. I've had the opportunity to learn about their seperate histories with you from both of them, how your lives overlapped, and how much you came to mean to them. YOU'RE the reason why they even agreed to give The Birds of Prey a try, despite their concerns about Oldenburg, and they both feel that you've left them out in the deepest of waters, with no real support where she's concerned.
They went to your aid immediately, they are the ones who made it possible for me to save your life. How do you think they're going to feel if they find out you're with her now, letting her belittle them and their efforts on your behalf without you holding her accountable?
As I told Vivica, it really doesn't matter that Sharon, Alycia, and myself are thinking of leaving this team, because if you, and the rest of them continue to tolerate Oldenburg's behavior as it is now? There won't BE a team.
In your zeal to drink from the well of "emotion" that you've discovered in Oldenburg, don't forget, OR ABANDON the house of fellowship that you built with Sharon and Alycia , each of them has been fortified over many years, with experiences you've all shared, bonds of trust that were formed, that can't be ignored in favor of the new, or the carnal nature.
In talking with Vivica....I realized that perhaps some of the challenges that people in this group, you included, face regarding me, is that you simply don't know much about me.
There IS a distinct advantage to being almost IMPOSSIBLE to find on any database around the globe, but that doesn't make for ease or even comfort when dealing with people in a....group dynamic.
It wasn't a necessity for me to "share" things with Malice and Enchantrah, and that was suitable for me. Frankly, it's suitable for ME now...but I have others...including Richard to consider.
And while my talk with Vivica has made my decision to leave the Birds of Prey...less certain. I still have concerns. I have ISSUES, Zach.
"I see. Well, we DO seem to be going through some growing pains, don't we? Dominique, I don't want you to feel as if you aren't a valued member of the team. Even BEFORE you saved my life, you contributed a great deal to our success against the Purifiers. Perhaps you'd like to discuss your issues? I'll help resolve them, if I can."
:: she looked at him for a moment, before she shifted in her bed, relaxing more, and sighing::
There's this perception that I am aloof, unreacheable. That is not accurate.
Vivica spoke of "self imposed isolation..." but there's more to it than that.
:: She said with a less cold tone.::
The road that I walk requires discipline, VIGILANCE.
I have a COVENANT with my goddess, to safeguard life of Nicolas...so that his father father cannot return to this world.
Set is the egyptian god of the desert, storms, disorder and violence. He is ALSO Nicolas' FATHER.
The original Isis- was his sister. She was also the goddess of rebirth, medicine, life, and magick. By way of our covenant, I am her avatar, and her power, her attributes, her mantel are MINE.
If Nicolas' blood is spilled and he dies...the door way for
Set will be irrevocably OPENED, and he will be reborn in renewed physical form through his SON'S BODY, adding Nicolas' powers to his own infamous abilities.
If I let that happen...or if something happens TO ME...and I'm UNABLE to honor my covenant and protect Nicolas, this world...and everything in it...would be in DANGER on a level not unlike CIRCE.
Set will DESTROY everything in his path!
The LAST time he POSSESSED Nicolas, and returned to this world, it took the COMBINED efforts of the Six and Hellfire's sisterhood to CHECK him long enough for me to BANISH him.
Set's return is NOT something that you, Zizi or ANYONE ELSE on this team is prepared for, and I don't ever want it to come to that. I MUST NOT let it come to that, not only for your sakes, but the sake of all that is.
:: She hoped Zach understood the gravity of this and that it answered some questions about her standoff nature::
Nicolas was the product of Set raping my sister, after he attacked my village.
I tried to stop him...he hurt me...left me barely alive while he ravaged my sister and left her pregnant.
I...begged my sister to end that unholy pregnancy. She refused. She believed that Nicolas could be born in love, and raised in a manner completely OPPOSITE of all that his father stood for. Her faith, in my mind, was foolish, and unjustified.
She DIED giving birth to him, and when I tried to kill him THEN....the leaders of my village stopped me, deeming me insane.
I left them...and what little bit of a "life" I had left there, and wandered the harsh desert, waiting...HOPING to DIE. My sister was gone. A MONSTER had been born to this world...and I had failed, as a sister, a midwife, a woman...I had nothing left.
Isis came to me after hearing my cries. That moment ultimately lead to the woman you see before you now.
But along the way, I LOST my way, as I carved a bloody path of vengeance from one side of the world to this one, to find and DESTROY Nicolas, and avenge my sister. I destroyed his adoptive father's business partner, and slaughtered more than half of his board of his investors, along with others that either stood in my way or held information that helped me to close in on him.
In my desire for vengeance, I strayed from my covenant with my goddess...but she did not forsake me. She helped me reorient...and I....I'm GLAD that I did not destroy him after all. Nicolas and I are in a MUCH better place now, but there are times, that I need to put distance between even HIM and myself, because of the PAIN that still lingers in my heart. He doesn't remember his mother, he never knew her. But I remember sister. I sill dream of her...and sometimes...I relive that night that Set came...and destroyed our lives.
:: she paused for a moment, leaving them in silence as she looked ahead...::
:: But in a few moments, she resumed
Nicolas and I are in a MUCH better place.
But watching over him, protecting him, keeping Set's unholy presence and influence at bay....it's a duty that is constant.
I am Nicolas' ONLY living blood relative, and this struggle is not just physical, it is waged on the astral plane as well. I spend more time, than any of you could know, providing a BUFFER for Nicolas, as Set tries to PRESS HIS WAY through the barriers that I have established in Nicolas' mind with my magicks.
::sighing::
To say that it is CHALLENGING at times...is putting it MILDLY.
With that said, there are other things...that people on this..."TEAM" fret over that just seem so....FRIVOLOUS by comparison. If anything, they take the FREEDOM and LACK OF BURDEN they have for granted, and it INFLAMES my contempt for them. Some of them waste time, worrying about things that JUST DON'T MATTER, and they dismiss that which they don't know. It's INFURIATING!
:: yet another moment of insight provided by Dominique, to explain why she seems so easily ANGERED.::
Since my departure from the Hellfire club, it HAS gotten a bit easier. Nicolas HAS matured, and taken more of the burden, but he too gets...DISTRACTED sometimes, by the petty FOOLISHNESS of his team. They've wasted SO MUCH TIME since the Blue Moon.
I knew there was a reason I PASSED on the offer to be a "Six reservist" but this team hardly seems any better!
:: she continued on to her next source of displeasure::
My next issue?? Ashley Oldenburg. The woman is obtuse, and her behavior is completely unaccepctable. So too, is the expectation that Sharon, Alycia, and myself, should just OVERLOOK her constant belligerence and disrespect.
How can you, or ANYONE ELSE expect there to be a team that functions with ethics, and EQUITY FOR ALL INVOLVED, when HER behavior is excused, and in some cases- by some of you- even ROMANTICIZED or made to seem....CUTE?
:: She became agitated again::
It's UNACCEPTABLE!
And before you tell me that she "has your back in battle," I'll tell you the same thing I told Vivica- SO WHAT? Even Malice and Enchantrah knew how to be TEAM PLAYERS, which is why the THREE of us were able to DEFEAT the Six at Minerva's Aerie in battle.
Our lives, our interaction...our ability to deal with one another does not being and END in battles or emergencies, and this idea that her ABUSIVE behavior should be overlooked because of what she does in battle is ABSURD.
This notion that because of her norse pedigree, she is somehow special...or ELEVATED above myself and the amazons? or that her experiences give her a pass for behaving like a surly, insufferable COW doesn't hold water, Zach.
She's not the only one with a backstory that left her with PAIN.
And There are OTHER pantheons, OTHER gods and goddesses, and the irony is that HER dieties- including the Sky Father himself, reached across pantheons to work with mine, AND the amazons' dieities to save humanity on more than one occassion. He was NOT given over to the gross ARROGANCE that she operates with.
:: She wonderd if he was not only hearing, but LISTENING. Would he be as interested to LEARN about her?::
Even during my time with the Sisterhood, I did not DELIGHT in the suffering of others, the way Ashley seems to delight in the suffering of people now.
Malice came to me during the HEIGHT of my campaign of revenge on Nicolas, and she offered me the position of the Black Queen. I used her, just as much as she used me...but my very nature made her origin, and ties to Mystech and all that she did in their name, ABHORRENT.
I do NOT want my ward, Richard, being exposed to a group dynamic where behavior such as ASHLEY'S is tolerated, and excused, while any attempt to challenge it or hold her accountable is silenced. I worked VERY hard to help him see CLEARLY while we were at the Hellfire Mansion, and I'm going to continue to do that, but if something isn't done to change this dysfunctional dynamic, then I suspect that it will be better...HEALTHIER for him to do it ELSEWHERE, even if he DOES express a desire to remain here.
If this "team" is to be taken seriously, then it's time that EVERYONE be treated with respect, on AND off the battle field. It's time that the FOOLISHNESS is addressed and STOPPED.
When Oracle and yourself recruited new members, surely you had to know that new sensibilities would come into play, and whatever culture you had before may not be APPROPRIATE for the changing make up of the group.
I....
:: She paused for a moment. She still couldn't believe that she had ALLOWED herself to be...ROPED IN to at least "giving this group a try" by Vivica. She wondered if she'd had a moment of weakness when she allowed herself to be TOUCHED by Oracle's and Matrix's words::
....implied to Vivica that I might willing to stay...to give things a TRY...but I will NOT present for "more of the same," Zach, and I feel quite certain and comfortable in speaking for the Amazons when I say they will not either.
This needs to be handled TOGETHER, in order for maxium impact and change to be achieved.
:: She kept her gaze on Zach::
I'm under no impression that Ashley will be joining me for tea, or going shopping with the amazons. But a TEAM needs to not only be able to fight together, they need to have RESPECT, which breeds TRUST, and ultimately makes for an equitable dynamic.