The Cemetery
It was like being in a daze. Sometimes she wasn't sure she could feel anything. And then the next moment she wasn't sure she could contain the hurt inside her. The energy she had been putting into planning the funeral and wake had been sucked away now that there was nothing left to do but mourn. She didn't even feel like she had the strength to push herself around. They could have left her anywhere, and she would have sat there all day in the same place, staring off into the distance.
Zach: “Mrs. Jerome, if you’re in need of pallbearers I’d be honored to volunteer.”
Zizi looked up. Zach really was the kindest person. Her red-tinged eyes glanced at Maggie, who managed a smile.
Maggie: "Thank you, Zach, that would be lovely. I'm sure Gabriel appreciated having such good friends."
Maggie dabbed at her eyes, and took a steeling breath as the group began to move towards the chapel. The vicar, a certain Father Thomas, pulled Maggie away from them and Zach broke away to assemble with the other pall bearers, leaving the other four of them to walk into the silent chapel and make their way to the front pew.
She heard the organ begin to play, and people turned, almost as if they were all at a wedding. But instead of a bride, it was a coffin coming down the aisle. It was Gabe. A sob escaped from her as she first saw it, and she quickly turned back in her seat to face the front. She covered her mouth with her handkerchief. This felt like a nightmare. This was a nightmare. It couldn't be real. Gabe couldn't be dead. He just couldn't be. But he was. He was in that box that they were setting down, just a few feet from where she sat.
The vicar said many beautiful things about Gabriel Jerome, told funny stories from his childhood that he had picked up somewhere, but Zizi barely heard any of it. She just kept staring at that box in front of her, wondering how this had all happened. How she had let this happen.
When the service was finished, they carried the coffin back the way they had come. Zizi wasn't sure if she had taken a breath the entire time it had been near her. The vicar then led the way to the gravesite, Maggie following behind him, then Zizi and the others. She stared silently at the coffin again, giant and black and with a wreath of white lilies on top.
What was she going to do now? Gabe had been with her her whole life. The only person she'd ever wanted. Her reason to get up in the morning. How could she go on without him?
It was like being in a daze. Sometimes she wasn't sure she could feel anything. And then the next moment she wasn't sure she could contain the hurt inside her. The energy she had been putting into planning the funeral and wake had been sucked away now that there was nothing left to do but mourn. She didn't even feel like she had the strength to push herself around. They could have left her anywhere, and she would have sat there all day in the same place, staring off into the distance.
Zach: “Mrs. Jerome, if you’re in need of pallbearers I’d be honored to volunteer.”
Zizi looked up. Zach really was the kindest person. Her red-tinged eyes glanced at Maggie, who managed a smile.
Maggie: "Thank you, Zach, that would be lovely. I'm sure Gabriel appreciated having such good friends."
Maggie dabbed at her eyes, and took a steeling breath as the group began to move towards the chapel. The vicar, a certain Father Thomas, pulled Maggie away from them and Zach broke away to assemble with the other pall bearers, leaving the other four of them to walk into the silent chapel and make their way to the front pew.
She heard the organ begin to play, and people turned, almost as if they were all at a wedding. But instead of a bride, it was a coffin coming down the aisle. It was Gabe. A sob escaped from her as she first saw it, and she quickly turned back in her seat to face the front. She covered her mouth with her handkerchief. This felt like a nightmare. This was a nightmare. It couldn't be real. Gabe couldn't be dead. He just couldn't be. But he was. He was in that box that they were setting down, just a few feet from where she sat.
The vicar said many beautiful things about Gabriel Jerome, told funny stories from his childhood that he had picked up somewhere, but Zizi barely heard any of it. She just kept staring at that box in front of her, wondering how this had all happened. How she had let this happen.
When the service was finished, they carried the coffin back the way they had come. Zizi wasn't sure if she had taken a breath the entire time it had been near her. The vicar then led the way to the gravesite, Maggie following behind him, then Zizi and the others. She stared silently at the coffin again, giant and black and with a wreath of white lilies on top.
What was she going to do now? Gabe had been with her her whole life. The only person she'd ever wanted. Her reason to get up in the morning. How could she go on without him?