Auntie and Nephew
It's a pity that your role is the only reason you came, though I know I cannot ever blame you if that is your disposition concerning me.....anyway, it seems that in spite of my intentions and efforts that it is my lot to be despised. I have been attacked in ways I could have never imagined a year ago when I joined the Six, and it seems that maybe...now is the time to leave. Because I am trying to endure the abuse, hoping for better days but I am finding that I am continually provoked and losing the battle to maintain control in the face of my current treatment. And no one is more cognizant of what me losing control could cost EVERYONE than I am.
[ Dominique looked at her young nephew. So strong, so vital and yet...so fragile and so stressed. Beneath her stone faced expression, within her hard heart, there is the SMALLEST flicker of...COMPASSION!?]
[ her black opera gloved hand reaches up slowly...and then suddenly she covers his mouth, silently commanding him to stop talking.]
That's enough.
[ she says in a clear, disdainfull tone.]
The first thing you need to do is hush.
now...sit down.
[ she steps back and lets him sit in a meditation style. she spreads her black fur collared cape and the shadow casts out and around, spreading around them until all sounds and sight of the desert expanse is lost. they are now somewhere ELSE, courtesy of a spell from Dominique. it is a quiet place, serene...hidden from any where. Even Nicolas can't tell where he is.]
[ If Dominique was going to SHOW of her compassion or anything ELSE in the way of care and concern, she would do so privately. This was a family matter.]
From the very time you were born....your existence, your presence has caused chaos, heartache and misery.
[ and Nicolas is allowed to "revisit" the past...his origins in its entirety.]
But for everyone that wanted to see you destroyed, there was ONE who defied them all...and dared to love you, even KNOWING who and what you truly were.
[ his mother...and her older sister, Dominique beside her.]
After your mother's death...my life was not worth living. I left the village, wandering no where and yet...on a path. I welcomed Death's embrace but she never came...it was apparently not my destiny. Gustav came and gave you ANOTHER chance...
[ a montage of the years with Gustav, all the learning, growing, teaching, experience, even a few moments where a young Nicolas met Sharon.]
but you could not escape who you are...what you were connected to.
[ the drama of Set.]
Manipulated though you were? that is NO excuse...no absolution of guilt or responsibility. THAT is where you fail right now.
[ the affair with Haleigh replays...and Dominique FORCES him to see it.]
You lost your witch, because you betrayed her with the hybrid. The manipulation came from something that ALREADY existed.
Though you may think your actions were not your own...they WERE. accept that you are no more perfect or well meaning than any other human, ACCEPT your fallen status.
[ moving on to the more recent events]
your behavior is not befitting what your adoptive father taught you. You are acting more like an undisciplined child. someone with no sense of responsbility. you PLAY at being responsible, you BELIEVE that you are UNJUSTLY "mistreated" but you're wrong.
you're WRONG.
but now? you have ANOTHER CHANCE...
[they return to the secret darkness and Dominique is now sitting right across from Nicolas.]
The best thing that i can do for you, is to set you BACK on the path you need to be. I must not....will NOT be any kind of "mother" to you. You have that in the witch, Shadow Weaver, the mutate, Silver Swan or even the otherworldly goddess, Ororo. BUT...despite my personal feelings...
[ taking his hands into her own gloved hands.]
I have...COMPASSION for your hardship. Where you are now...is where I was in the desert before Isis greeted me.
Accept your mistakes, Nicolas and all that comes with that. Do NOT try to find fault with others or "assess blame". ACCEPT that you are where you are because of YOU and now that you understand that...TURN AROUND and GO BACK but know that because of your actions, things will NEVER be the same. It is not for you to dictate how they will be. YOU are the one with the burden.
If there is one thing that is unique among humans, it is the capacity to forgive and the DESIRE to RECOVER and move on. Just as YOU want to more forward? so do your friends. But how CAN they when you keep REMINDING them who your REAL father is?
Recovery is SLOW, Nicolas. You are young and uncoordinated and the things you do REOPEN wounds that have JUST begun to close!
Learn how to HUSH. Learn how to DO what y ou are supposed to because it is what you are supposed to do...and dont EXPECT anything else. I have accepted that no matter how I may FEEL about you...that I have a DUTY to you...that duty is tremendous burden BUT I accept it just the same.
You have your allies, those who are keeping the door OPEN for your chance. Harbinger and Silver Swan...do NOT squander their kindness or efforts...rather BUILD on them.