Apt. 4
Nicolas? MY knight in armour? even if I could have allowed myself to think that BEFORE...that all ENDED when Set appeared...and when he...did what he did. Not only that, but just recently, when he attacked Delilah! I can't get over that. the image is STILL in my head! I mean..I'e ALWAYS been prepared to fight or KILL a man if i had to in order to protect myself , my mother or my friends...I EXPECTED him to try something with ME...but with Delilah? oh HELL no!
I feel like I lost my EDGE between the Arklay incident and now. a Man like Nicolas would have been reduced to ASH had he come across me during my days with Valiant!
"Nobody said you had to get over it, Morg. Out of everyone to attack Delilah didn't deserve it." Blaze listened while nodding along. "Maybe he
does love you after all....why else wouldn't he confront you?"
Staring into her sister's violet eyes, Blaze watched Tinkerbell from the couch. "You did lose your edge. But we both know you're capable of getting it back. Maybe you just need to focus on your family, your career, and about you!" Blaze sat forward on the couch. "Why not take what you want? If men can do it so can women. And you were very fierce in Valient." Smirking at the memory of that team. "You had a real edge about you but you only needed to worry about you and me. That's what you need now."
see? that's what i'm talking about. even you can tell that beneath it all...i stil....<< gritting her teeth.>> CARE!? WHY? WHY should i care? he didnt care about ME! He didnt care when he slutted it up with Haleigh and TERRORIZED the rest of us!
"And that comes as a surprise to you? We both know men think differently than women. He wanted to have his cake and eat it too." Reaching down to squeeze Morgan's hand. "Do NOT let Nicolas King bring you down! You were fine BEFORE you met and you will be fine AFTER him. He and Haleigh did a terrible thing but Haleigh had the courage to be honest. She didn't try to blame it on her heritage. Which is why I respect her. I don't always agree with her methods but if I had to choose between Nicolas and Haleigh then I would choose Haleigh." Pausing to consider Morgan's words for a second. "I'm very observant but you don't need a map to see you care, Morgan. You're not a robot. It is NORMAL to feel compassion despite all of the heartache, agony, and pain that occurred. It's all a part of the moving on process. It does get easier everyday. Just try not to focus on it. Keep busy. Focus on your career as I said. He has to deal with his actions. We all do."
i think my problem is that i got caught unaware! i feel like i took a risk, and got the rug pulled out from under me and it DID. but even BEFORE then, Nicolas says "all he wanted was for me to love him"...that ISNT how he showed that on Aerie before Alison and Ava were lost in the time stream.
"Getting caught off guard isn't the only problem. You loved him...you still do. But that's the beauty of love, babe. You take risks on those you care and love for. You guys all took a risk with me. It takes two to tango in the love department. Love is reciprocated. Did you ever question
why you were hesitant? Does he know the history with Christopher? Look, I'm going to be bias here because you're my sister, mainstream or not. I want the best for you."
im so tired of it all. i just want this to be completely resolved so i can move on!
"You and me both! But unfortunately, everything has to run its course. But you CAN move on now. The more you focus on yourself the easier it will become and before you know it you'll be on your way."
a spirit board? oh PLEASE, who do you think I am? some AMATEUR like PHOEBE HALLIWELL!?
"Actually, I had you pegged more as Prue Halliwell." :hehe2:
Chuckling at Morgan's jest. It was good to see the statuesque blonde making cracks. A sign the old Morgan was still in there.
but we CAN do something else to contact grammie...
"Spill."
The apparition would play out showing a different side to Nicolas.
"Well, didn't Alison predict that Nicolas would get back on the right track?"
Blaze, I don't want to seem weak or foolish. I tried to make a CLEAN break from Nicolas, but we see how well THAT is gone. Barbas is using that to GET to me.
We need to DEAL with him!
"I don't consider you weak or foolish. You didn't exactly make a clean break. You put distance between you and it didn't work. It was a temporary fix that only delayed the obvious." Blaze got up to take her empty glass and Morgan's to the kitchen. In the process she grabbed the remote from the coffee table to turn on the stereo. "Circus" by Britney Spears would begin to play.
"You just need to relax and have a good time in the comfort of your own home! After all there are two types of guys out there. The ones that can hang with you and the ones that are scared."
Making them a more potent drink 'Firebird' style. Grabbing two tall shot glasses, 1/2 shot of Vodka, 1/2 shot of white Tequila, 1/2 shot Brandy, and 1/2 shot Kalua to make a Flaming Colombian Cockroach.
Returning from the kitchen to set both drinks down onto the table with two straws. Blaze grinned devilishly, pointing her index finger at Morgan's drink to light it on fire. "Drink up, Morg! You need to drink quickly though through the straw. Otherwise the straw will melt and DO NOT blow in the straw or you will loose your eyebrows." Blaze moved to sit down next to her sibling while Tinkerbell jumped up onto the couch.
"I'm like a fire cracker, I make it hot!"
Chuckling, Blaze was exactly what her sister needed right now, fun!
"Now, when you say we need to deal with him..are we talking about Barbas or Nicolas?" Taking a few gulps of the strong drink, Blaze didn't mind listening. Her main goal was to try to take Morgan's mind off of Nicolas and Barbas for once.