i was running late for work.
while driving to work, there were reports of "an accident" at the WTC but nothing was quite clear yet.
@ work was when it became clear what was happening & after the first tower was hit, nobody was at their desks/in their offices. we were all in the conference room transfixed by the TV & what we were seeing. we watched the 2nd tower get hit & it was mind numbing.
probably an hour or so later, our bldg, along w/ other federal & state govt bldgs was shut down & we were ordered to evacuate. ppl were truly fearfull & panicked b/c we didnt know what was coming next.
I remember having to run down MANY flights of stairs b/c we couldnt take the elevators so @ one point I stopped & took my high heels off b/c i could move faster w/o them. By the time we got out side, law enforcement were scrambling to secure federal courthouses & other bldgs deemed important or possible targets. ppl were out in the streets running, on their phones ...it was like a scene from a movie where a monster or some disaster was unfolding over the sky of a big city & ppl were out in the streets in a panic.
All over the city, ppl were jamming the streets, trying to get to schools to get their kids. radio personalities on local stations were URGING parents to "go get their babies" from school. most places of business shut down & it's the first time I could ever recall not seeing a single plane in the sky for several days. traffic was bad, BUT if you knew your way around good enough, you could wind through via backroads, & i NEEDED to get home. I NEEDED to be able to go through the anxiety & fear that was creeping up on me in MY personal space. I needed to be able to reach out to my loved ones but I had to do it from my personal space.
It was fear everywhere.
My aunt, @ the time, was still a regional marketing exec for Givenchy, which is in the Rockefeller Center, near the WTC & of course my family was quite concerned about her. We couldnt reach her for hours & my mother was nearly beside herself. We finally heard from her late that night & in my heart...I just had this feeling she WAS okay but still...moments like that are not easy to get through. I know fear & concern about loved ones was something all of us & everyone else shared that day.
I remember sitting on my indoor back porch that evening looking up at the night sky wondering
"what's going to happen to us?!"
I wondered if this was the prelude of some invasion of America & if we were going to be torn apart the way Rome was by the visigoths. I still couldnt fathom the pain of loss the ppl @ ground zero were feeling. those brave souls...the "first responders" , many of whom didnt survive, those ppl who decided to plunge from the bldg, rather than be burned to death.
<<sigh>>
im gonna be honest & say this: i DO believe 9/11 was an "inside job" based on what I've read & researched over the last 10 years. for ME, that makes the SENSELESS LOSS OF INNOCENT LIVES that day all the more tragic , sad & depressing. I feel like there are ALOT of spirits of ppl who were MURDERED that are crying out for TRUE justice & that it will never come. I feel like what happened was far more repugnant than others might think b/c of who was REALLY responsible for it.
Now before anybody gets offended ...i'm not here to turn this into a political discussion, I'm just offering my own thoughts like everyone else did. I'm still keeping it focused on the fact that something DREADFULL happened & alot of innocent ppl who went to work that day & some of whom were probably "running late" like i was, went to work @ WTC, & their lives were destroyed. Ppl went in to try to help...& they were lost too...
Before this, the single biggest loss of American life in "peacetime" had been the Jonestown massacre. Now, in a post 9/11...nothing's the same.
I'll never forget
