Sanctum Sanctorum- Chamber of Dreams
“Blaze, you put a stop to easy and productive communication when you cut me out of the loop. Seriously just stop, and take a second to consider how YOU would feel if I kept YOU away from Morgan, and six months later you check in to find she’s DYING. Wouldn’t YOU be pissed that I just unilaterally decided YOU couldn’t help her when she obviously needed it? I’m not asking you to apologize, I get that you did what you thought was best, everybody KNOWS I’ve been put in similar catch 22s. Do you think you can just say ‘okay Haleigh, I hear you, next time I’ll call you’? Is THAT too much to ask of you?”
:: No, it WASN'T, and Haleigh was right, if anyone understood the unpleasant position of being in a catch 22, it was HER, it had been that way in Firebird's native timeline. Blaze was ALREADY reassessing her response and her behavior regarding the way she followed Morgan's request.::
If you THINK that Hellfire would’ve just laid down and died because Malice was defeated, you’re a fucking FOOL. You didn’t GO THERE, Blaze. You didn’t see all the people at the blackout party, all the ones from city hall, and Congress, who make the laws and policies that the rest of us have to live with. You didn’t meet the weasels from Wall Street, who manipulate the market and jack up the price of commodities, who pretty much STEAL money through exercising influence over the economy, which is a lesser evil, but I have to cover gas for my fleet and I don’t like paying twice as much because some hedge fund boy paid a politician to shut down a pipeline.”
She laid an arm over the back of the chaise lounge, crossing her legs at the knee.
“You think it’s just some club where evil assholes hang out and blow smoke up each other’s asses? You are mistaken. Hellfire is a network of people with the power to affect our daily lives. If I’m at the helm? I have SOME influence over the decisions made behind closed doors because I’m there to weigh in. Failing that? I have easy access to take them out, one by one or several at a time. For fuck’s sake Blaze, it’s like you’ve never heard of keeping your friends close and your enemies closer.”
Haleigh said, with a scoff.
:: Blaze flinched...as she found herself remembering her dynamic with her native timeline's Haleigh, and how they BOTH had a background in espionage and black ops, it was something that allowed them to gel quite well together from a tactical place, even though they didn't always get along on a PERSONAL level in the beginning, and again, Blaze had never found out whether she'd been related to THAT Haleigh by way of Christopher....::
:: Firebird had not been touched by Malice the way Foxfire had, but with the
enchanted ring Blaze wore, she knew ALL of Foxfire's memories. Haleigh was right...again.::
“Are you really trying to justify her attacking me back there when all I was doing was trying to get Morgan the help she desperately needed??”
Haleigh challenged incredulously.
No, OF COURSE NOT....
:: But Blaze still felt it was obvious that Haleigh didn't like, or even TRUST Hecate, even though that was Morgan, Karen, AND Alison's Foremother...Yes, Blaze DID have a reverence for Hecate that Haleigh did not share and she was....::
....afraid that Hecate might WITHDRAW her aid all together if she was angered....
:: YES, Blaze was afraid of that. She had cried out for Hecate, knowing she was the only one who could save Morgan, and she didn't want anything to prevent that from happening, but she realized that in her tunnel vision in that moment, she'd stood by, not even SAYING anything. She COULD have VOICED the need for Hecate not to ADD to Morgan's loss, appealed to the goddess on some level. She'd always been good at building bridges in the past, even going back to her native timeline, but with everything that had happened, going back to the Blue Moon, Blaze had grown INCREASINGLY TRIBAL, ONLY wanting to protect and advocate for Morgan, herself, and Karen, and this was directly due to the trauma she endured LOSING both of these women in her timeline. she realized that she'd never really GOT OVER THAT. And now, with Nicolas loss, and Morgan's breakdown, she'd gone into OVERDRIVE, and it had clouded her judgement. ::
“Oh boy, what an excellent excuse for not using your voice.”
Haleigh retorted, and Blaze asked what Haleigh would’ve had her or Jimaine do. Haleigh’s eyes flashed angrily again, and this time she rose up from her seat.
“I don’t give a FUCK about Jimaine being a little teacher’s pet, but YOU could’ve said something. How about a little indignation at the way that bitch dared to talk to your sister?? Or maybe you could’ve expressed the slightest consternation that she tried to fucking SMITE ME?! But hey, it’s fine if you don’t care about ME, the LEAST you could’ve done would have been interject that I had a POINT about focusing our efforts on helping your REAL sister Morgan.”
She said, and the more she thought about it the more frustrated she got, not at Hecate, but at Blaze.
“If Persephone had been there, she wouldn’t have stood by for a SECOND and let Hecate act like I was just SHIT to be scraped off her high heels. But you’ve got your head so far up Hecate’s ass that you apparently can’t even see she was treating me that way. Seph is more of a sister to me than you’ll EVER be.”
Haleigh spat angrily.
:: Blaze was hurt by this, but Haleigh had been hurt by what Hecate had said/did to her. Blaze couldn't believe what was being said, what was happening, as she throw her hands up in the air, and Morgan screamed at both of them to remember who they were to each other. Morgan also shed light on Hecate's hostility toward Haleigh, saying that it went far beyond their encounter during the original Set caper. Hecate hated Haleigh because she was a product of SCIENCE, a discipline that the goddess of witchcraft felt made humans too ARROGANT. Hecate was also repulsed by Haleigh's BIO connection to Spellbinder::
“It’s the reason I EXIST, Morgan. I’ll never be able to overcome that. It’s not right for her to make me her punching bag because she hates progress. Science and Technology improve the lives of EVERYONE, not just Hecate’s precious magick-using descendants. I’m never gonna just bend over for her so she can feel like she’s all powerful.”
It shouldn't be something she HAS to "overcome"...
:: Blaze thought to herself::
:: Morgan was right, HECATE wasn't here, this wasn't where HER life was bound, but it was where MORGAN, HALEIGH, AND BLAZE'S lives were bound, and they had made it this far because they'd been able to face things TOGETHER. Blaze LOST SIGHT of that in her ZEAL to protect Morgan, and do ANYTHING she could to STOP the pain that was literally killing Morgan after Nicolas' death::
:: the Olympians were cosmic beings, and most of them didn't have bloodlines that stretched to earth the way Hecate did, and it was mainly the goddesses who were connected to the Amazons, even after all these centuries. they didn't have the kind of ties or emotional attachments that humans did, and it was well documented how unkind and even abusive they could be toward humans. If not for the bloodline, who's to say that Hecate wouldn't treat Morgan or any of the rest of them the way she treated Haleigh??::
:: Morgan screamed that she was not 100%, despite being conscious and repowered, and asked her sisters to stop going at each other and help HER::
“Okay Morgan, how can I help?”
Haleigh, Go down stairs, please, and deal with that....
<< She stopped herself from saying "INTERLOPER". He'd pledged himself to "the Mother", and Haleigh CORRECTLY pointed out earlier that THEY had a STRONG tactical advantage here. It was clear that Haleigh was the best person to deal with Beto, aka Brenthon, at this time, and Morgan NEEDED her to handle this>>
<< She turns back to Haleigh and Blaze>>
....deal with HIM. VET him THOROUGHLY. If he's going to stay here, I want to be SURE that it's safe to trust him, and i want to be sure that HE knows what will happen if he crosses any of us. We're NOT the Masters of Evil. The behavior that flew with THEM does NOT necessarily fly with US.
But before you go...
<< she moves toward Haleigh and Blaze...>>
I need a hug...please...i need my family...
“Alright, it’s gonna be okay Morgan. You’re strong enough to get through this, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.”
She said gently, and then she pulled back, her hands still on Morgan’s shoulders.
“And if you decide that you just can’t go on without him? Let me know, and I’ll help you get him back. You can do your scrying thing and find him in some bad alternate reality, and we can hop through a stepping disc and go rescue him together.”
She said, sincerely.
“But for now? Try to remind yourself that the way to honor his sacrifice is to make the most of every day. Find things that make you happy and pursue them, so that when he looks down on you, he can be happy that you’re flourishing. Because he’s never going to be at peace if he has to spend eternity watching you suffer without him.”
She added, then she finally let go.
“Don’t worry about Brenthon. I’ll deal with him until you feel more comfortable.”
She assured Morgan, and then she turned to leave.
:: If Haleigh could step outside of HER comfort zone for Morgan, Blaze should certainly do the same for Haleigh, right now, in front of Morgan, so that SHE could see that Blaze was truly about helping her too, AND so that she could show Haleigh she'd HEARD her::
Haleigh, please wait.
:: Blaze said as she came up to her::
I DO owe you an apology.
You see....I...i've NEVER gotten over the losses I sustained in my own timeline. And when [Mainstream] Morgan and I made the promise to watch out for/protect each other...I became so TUNNEL VISION in that after the Blue Moon. I also became very
TRIBAL, without even realizing it. That's part of why I lashed out at Delilah after Morgan fled to Limbo after the Blue Moon. I felt that somebody had to speak up for Morgan!
:: She said with genuine reflection::
When Nicolas died, and Morgan began to fall apart, I felt powerless, and I was caught up in the riptide of her despair, as well as MY OWN emotion and grief over Nicolas' loss.
I didn't know what else to do, other than give Morgan what she asked for, which was ESCAPE, from EVERYONE, and SOLITUDE. I just wanted to help her however i could.
You're right. I see that the way I chose to handle things, once it was clear that Morgan was deteriorating WAS a mistake, AND while I didn't CONSCIOUSLY realize it at the time, I secretly felt the rest of you would have made things worse and not better. It WAS hurtful for me to cut you and Alison out of the communication where Morgan was concerned, and I'm sorry.
I just...
:: shutting her eyes tightly::
I just didn't want Morgan to be HURT ANYMORE.
I was able to fight off Circe's bestiamorphs, and whatever else she threw at Minerva's Aerie, But I powerless to help Morgan in the aftermath of the Blue Moon when she and Alison bore the brunt of Delilah's wrath, and I felt so....USELESS. So I verbally attacked Delilah in the name of defending Morgan.
And then Nicolas....he and Cameron did SO MUCH to help me feel like I BELONGED here. He and Morgan BELONGED TOGETHER, and yet...once again, there was NOTHING I could do to SAVE him.
When Morgan asked me to take her away, and
hide her from the world...I jumped to it because I wanted her to know I wouldnt fail her THIS time, and I didn't want her to FLEE to Limbo, AGAIN, where neither I, nor ANYONE ELSE could reach her.
:: She looks back at Haleigh::
I understand now, what you're doing with Hellfire.
The Haleigh from my timeline....she and I...we had similar backgrounds in espionage and black ops. I knew what she could do, and even though we didn't always get along PERSONALLY
(in the earlier days) I KNEW i could TRUST her with my back, my LIFE, and the same went for her with me.
You've proven, MORE than once, that you are exceptionally good at navigating the darkest, most dangerous waters, and people, willing and able to make decisions that perhaps only Harbinger could face.
I....I'm ASHAMED that I LOST sight of that with YOU. You're right. I
HAVEN'T been a good sister.
I let my RESENTMENT and personal offense at you taking the mantle of the White Queen effect my view of you and i stood back and said nothing when Hecate berated you and physically bullied you.
:: She looked genuinely remorseful as she shook her head::
I
KNEW she was wrong for how she was treating you, but I let my REVERENCE for Hecate cloud my judgement!
:: She balled her hand into a fist, as a red/orange corona formed around it::
I have ALWAYS prided myself on following my
[enhanced] instincts, and even in the Enchanted Forest, every instinct told me you were just trying to help Morgan, I just couldn't go against Hecate's will. I was "frozen" in fear that if she were too angry, she would COMPLETELY withdraw ALL possible help.
I just...wanted to do WHATEVER I could to help Morgan. I wanted to STOP the pain for her, however I could...and even though, neither I, nor Karen could do that.
I loved Nicolas too....and now he's
GONE!
Spellbinder said:
<<Morgan came close, placing her hands on Blaze's shoulders as the fire elemental spoke to the hybrid, offering silent support as Blaze reached out to Haleigh. Blaze was talking, really reaching out, THIS was what Morgan wanted, for all three of them>>
I was USELESS, yet again, and I displaced that on
You, and everyone else!
I saw what could happen if things went unaddressed amongst FAMILY in my native timeline. I don't want that to happen here, it didnt occur to me, until just now, that I could be OVERCORRECTING due to FEAR, GRIEF, wanting to do WHATEVER I could to protect her from any more losses, surprises or distress, even if I thought that meant shutting the rest of you out, could cause something like that to happen here.
I made a mistake, and I'm sorry.